Just two nights ago we received the news from our social
worker that our dossier is OOT!! WHOOHOO!! For those of you who do not know
what this is…it means our dossier is Out Of Translation and into the review
room as we await the LOA. We were
excited to find this out. It actually
means we are getting closer and closer to making that trip to go and bring
Shepard home!!
As excited as I was to receive this news…I immediately began
to get nervous because of how close we are to going. Not because of what we’re doing…but more like…How
in the WORLD are we going to do this? How in the world will all our expenses
needed for the completion of the adoption and for our trip come in? Are we
crazy?!?!
Before I go any further…I know I have friends and family
members that may question why in the world we’re adopting. We aren’t rich by any stretch of the
imagination. We live paycheck to
paycheck…why in the WORLD do we want to bring another child into our home…to have another mouth to feed…to
have less room for everyone…to stretch our budget even more than its already
stretched. We’re not oblivious to these
facts! We KNOW that it may seem crazy from the “world’s” perspective. But we know
that we are called to care for the orphan.
This is a way we can do that…a way we can be God’s hands and feet of
love and hope to a precious child who NEEDS love and hope. Will we have to sacrifice a little more on a
daily basis…yes. But having eternal
perspective and knowing that we are in this life to make a difference and in
the light of eternity…this is a wonderful investment into the Kingdom of
God.
So now that I’ve addressed that we KNOW what we’re doing is
God’s heart…even though we KNOW that it is…it doesn’t negate the fact that we
see the natural…we see the need that is still there to finish the process of
adoption. In the “natural” eye…it looks
absolutely crazy. With every step closer
to bringing Shepard home…we are equally excited and nervous. Praying God….we KNOW you’ve called us to this…and
we KNOW you’re leading us and we KNOW you are going to provide. But we don’t SEE it with our natural
eyes. Our faith is being stretched daily…all
the while we’re asking…are we crazy?!?!
Have you ever seen the movie “Evan Almighty”? This movie
speaks so much to me. It brings the
story of Noah into a modern day setting and really helps you realize the step of
faith Noah took. He must have looked
CRAZY to everyone around him. Even HE
must have said “ God…you ARE going to make this happen…right??!?” I wonder if Noah ever got nervous if God was
going to flood the land…or even if he would ever get that incredibly huge ark
built! That was faith too. Have you seen how big the ark was?!? WOW!!
I also wonder if Abraham as he stepped out in faith to obey
God to take his son Isaac to the altar, if he ever got nervous or wondered if
God was going to come through. He still
stepped out and walked in faith…and kept moving forward and walked to
obey. But I wonder…did he ever
experience nervousness of whether God was going to come through or not?!?
I don’t really KNOW what they felt…but I know what we
feel. I can only imagine that those two
men must have felt the same human feelings that we feel when we step out in
faith to obey. It doesn’t always make
sense…It doesn’t always look like the easiest or most realistic thing to do in
our minds eye. But those two men were
men of great faith! They obeyed no matter WHAT they felt or no matter what
others thought. They knew that God had given them a direction and HE was going
to take care of it!!
We have a friend that says…”If it’s God’s will, it’s God’s
bill”. I LOVE that! And that is totally
what we trust in!! Do we know how this is all going to work out? Absolutely
not. But we know this journey of
adoption is one that God has called our family to, and we would not dream of
being disobedient to HIS calling and plan.
We are excited about this journey…and even in the times when
we wonder if God is ever going to come through…we are reminded of the great men
and women in the Bible who were asked to do things that may have seemed CRAZY
to everyone else. But they obeyed. We want to be people of obedience!! We don't want to look back on our life and just WISH we would have stepped out and done some of the things God puts on our heart. In the
meantime…we are people who are standing in faith as we walk in obedience!! We
look forward to watch just how God is going to unfold His plan. We just have to let Him lead us and mold us
as we walk along this journey!
Sorry this was so long.
It has just been on my heart and I wanted to share. Thank you all for your prayers, support and
encouragement. It means so much to us!!
Blessings,
Mark & Buffi